Sue and Shelley's Big Adventure - Day Three
Have you ever wanted to just hit a pause button on your life, take a break, let go of everything for just a moment of time – no troubles, no worries, no pressure, no grief – just bliss? Well this is our day three.
My life for the last few years has been filled with all the things I have just mentioned above – from the moment I open my eyes I have been hit with the sledge hammer of life. I have taken the deepest of deep breathes and said I will make this the best day possible, even if my heart if weighed down with the sorrow of Paul, Imogen and all that my family has lost.
The tears I have cried on my way from my home to work could fill a river – but always before I enter the gym, I know that I must muster the strength to be the strong and invincible Shelley Myatt. My dearest friends know that this has not been easy for me – they also know how much I rely on my belief in strong body strong mind and strong spirit to get me through my days. Sue herself often sends me a text in my day to remind me that I am a string woman.
As you all know me well - I am a master of hiding my feelings - I always smile, find ways to laugh and experience joy in my life and I am always grateful that I have the capacity to do this even in the most difficult moments of my life. But truth be told my days have not been easy and my heart has cried every day for a life I can no longer have.
This trip with Sue symbolises more than a holiday to me. Sue knows this and so do a select few friends who I have confided in about what this time truly does mean. You see I do need a change and I do need to let go of the heaviness that has burdened my heart for so long. This is what the trip to Bali was to me – but now I am here in 1770 and suddenly I feel that all I had hoped for from Bali is coming to fruition here in this remote beautiful place. It is like food for my soul and my heart. The need to get away, slow down and be has been strong. That’s what Bali was to be. A road-trip instead I have found what I was looking for.
So now that I have completely exposed myself to everyone that I love and know – people who probably have known what my life has felt like from the outside but haven’t said – I thought I should tell what today has meant to me. I have plumbed new depths and acknowledged feelings and thoughts of the past and the future (PS I am so glad to have my special friend Sue here to share this with me – we have been the best of friends since the beginning of Paul and Shelley and she knows me well but she also loves me and has been committed to sharing this journey of our lives together.) Today we explored – thoughts, feelings and landscapes.
Day three - Sue and I decided to put our plans from Day Two into action. We decided to get out and explore the true beauty and essence of 1770. After a late start (yes guys, I did sleep in and not get up at 4.30am) we had a hearty and healthy breakfast and discussed our plan of action for the day. We decided that we needed to physically connect with this hamlet.
A trip to the information centre was in order – we needed to find out where to go and the best walks to take to discover all of this area.
Our first bush walk led us to what I said to Sue was like a Swiss Family Robinson deserted beach – only people arrived shortly after our arrival spoiling the serenity of the moment!?! This place felt like heaven to me and I could have sat forever on the rocks looking out to the majestic ocean – this I think is the first moment since the accident that I can say I felt at peace and as I stood on the rocks I knew this is where I needed to be and maybe it was ok to be happy and maybe I can do this life on my own.
Back to the luxurious unit for what some people would call a nanna nap but Sue and I call a power nap – ready to re-charge for another bushwalk this time to a lookout over the ocean.
Our afternoon walk did not let us down – Sue and I embraced the nature surrounding us – I snapped pictures and dreamt of becoming a famous hermit photographer, while Sue collected leaves and flowers to stitch into a beautiful cushion cover representing our trip.
It was an incredible afternoon for both of us and we both felt relaxed and removed from our everyday lives, something I have needed to do for the longest of time.
After our walk we settled on the ocean-front to watch the most beautiful sunset – Sue felt we needed some clouds to give definition to the sunset but to me it was stunning. I sat on the rocks and snapped picture after picture – looking for the perfect moment but in reality I was sitting in that moment. To cap it off two dolphins appeared in the water. It was a perfect way to end our day.
One thing I know - life is changing. Sue is facing personal changes with a move to Brisbane, a re-shaping of her job and sorting out how to be there for her children and grandchildren while embracing the life she craves.
For me I am now looking forward to a new life by myself. One that I hope will be filled with adventure and new challenges (of course shared with the people I love most in the world) and one that will bring a new and different happiness. Paul would want this for me and Paul would want me to be happy – he loved it when I was laughing and living and smiling. He would want to see this genuinely in me.
Shelley Myatt is the owner and operator of Shelley Myatt Fitness and Well-Being, Columnist, Life Coach & Motivational Speaker based in Toowoomba, Qld.