Making Magic Happen

With the beginning of each year there is a part of me that craves for something new or unexpected to happen in my life - for a new beginning, a new happiness to appear, one that is far removed from the memories of the past and the grief of the last three years.

This year I thought I would enter the year with the momentum of “Shelley have no expectations and see what will happen” – I think I was just secretly hoping something would magically appear in my life and all would be different.  When you have been dog paddling for so long with your head just above water and you’re feeling pretty exhausted - you just want something to happen, that’s easy, special and wonderful!!!

Well here is my revelation – Life is too short to wait for the magic to suddenly appear, and it’s not going to just come to me, I have to do the hard yards and make it happen – it’s now April and if I keep on waiting for my life to be different I will waste precious time and miss opportunities. This is not me or the girl I know and I know Paul and Imogen would not want this for me.

So this week I have said to myself – start making your own magic and see what happen – which is really how I have always been only I think I was just feeling worn out.

One of the things that make me happy is to see others happy; when I see someone smile, I feel so alive and a little bit of magic suddenly comes my way.  I also love giving flowers to people – so this week I have decided to give flowers all week to special people who are part of my life every day. Giving the flowers this week has been so special and last night when I looked into my mums eyes to see her so happy – I felt the really felt the love between us and it was magic.

Unfortunately I am on a budget and can only do this for a week and there are so many people I love and would dearly wish to surprise with a beautiful bunch of flowers.

I guess what I’m trying to say is  - Don’t ever wait for the magic to happen – make your own magic and when you feel it – enjoy and make the moment last as long as you can – life is too short you have to live it!